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Bluebird At My Window

By H. Noah

Rating: 4 out of 5.

When faced with trauma, how would you react?

Would you survive, succumb, or lose yourself to your own meaning of justice?

Ann was only seventeen when she died. She tried to be a dutiful daughter, to pray, to repent. But it wasn’t enough. Her mother, Diane, didn’t mean to kill her but when she found Ann consorting with devils, she had no choice. She believed the angels—that in the end, the water would save them both.

But every choice holds weight.

One death, and Arthur is thrown back into the work he wanted to leave. One death, and Richard must face the reality of his choices. One death, and Maddie and Marie are confronted with the hardest parts of love.

If only good intentions were enough to keep them from the carnage of their own decisions . . .

A dark contemporary fiction drenched in blood, this debut novel from H. Noah has an intricate true crime feeling with psychological depth.

A dark contemporary fiction drenched in blood, this debut novel from H. Noah has an intricate true crime feeling with psychological depth.

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About The Author:

They’ve been a massage therapist, social worker, poet, teacher, and more. Picking up a B.A. in Criminology and an M.S. in I-O Psychology. They’ve also lived in Alaska, Maine and many places in-between. They are currently still trying to find a forever place as they travel the US.



The following book centers around processing trauma. Please be aware that it will touch upon such topics as violence, sexual assault (not overly descriptive), racism, microaggressions, misogyny, incest, and homophobia. This book also focuses on mental health and will cover depression, anxiety, PTSD, suicidal ideation, hearing voices, religious fixations, delusions, self-harm, and drug abuse.

This book is dark due to the topics covered. This is not a horror or thriller meant to scare you. Please be kind to yourself and put the book back if you are not in a good place to read any of the things mentioned above.


This book takes an in depth look into how trauma can influence people in very different ways. It was a hard read, but I believe it was a good read for me. Processing trauma is hard enough, but add in other aspects such as loneliness or a breakup and alcohol, things can take a turn for the worse.

It all starts with the murder of Ann by her mother’s own hands. I cannot even begin to fathom this as the mother of three young girls. This part was hard for me to read, and it was heartbreaking. The mother obviously had deep seated mental issues from her own abusive past that were never dealt with. In no way does this excuse her actions with her own daughter. You just can’t help but wish that the mother, Diane had her own therapy and trauma addressed before she brought another person into this world who would ultimately be tortured and murdered by the very person who should love her no matter what.

The people brought in to handle this case have their own backlog of trauma from their past. This brings all sorts of nasty things to the surface. The lawyers involved, the police that were called to the scene all have their own reactions to this case. The slow breakdown of one charater is very well shown, and I applaud the author for how well they depicted this downfall. After a physical attack on two of the characters leaving one almost dead and being the tipping point of one character’s fall into mental chaos, things go downhill quick.

This book was so well developed, but there were just a few things that I felt could have been dealt with more. We had so many chapters from Diane’s mentally unstable point of view, but there were no finishes with her. There werea few other things that I felt got looked over, but without spoilers I can’t really get into.

I recommend that anyone interested in reading this book really read the trigger warnings carefully. A few times I had to stop reading and give myself a break. However, if you think you can handle it I would highly suggest reading this story.



8 thoughts on “Bluebird At My Window

  1. Maybe Diane’s lack of tidy ending was a reflection of her mental instability. I love this review. I honestly don’t know what I would do if I was faced with trauma. I’d like to think I’d survive but I can never know and I hope to never have a reason to know.

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